Goodbye 2013.

I don’t know about you but I have a really bad track record with sticking to the “traditional” New Year’s Eve resolutions. So for 2014 I have decided to focus on three main goals, one short term and two long term. I’ve learned that I need things to be small, tangible and measurable.

My first goal is to graduate in May. I just need to make it through one more semester. 5 more classes. 16 more credit hours. 10+ CAB events and a few fundraisers. – I know I can.

My second goal is to get my migraines under control again. I was feeling great last summer and I want to get back to a point of minimal to no migraines again. The plan is to use all my tools – stretches, breathing, yoga etc daily. I’m excited to continue working with my physical therapist and working to get back on track.

My third and most important goal, is that for 2014 I am going to keep my heart open. Open to new possibilities with family, friends, love and life. I am going to be applying for new and exciting internships, and I want to be open to wherever these roads might take me. I’m staying open to new friends and letting life lead the way. I am connecting with family that I haven’t been that close to in the past and taking the chance to say it love you while I have it. And instead of looking for love I’m going to make love look for me for a change.

I’m going into 2014 with an upmost positive attitude and I could not be more excited to see what the new year holds.

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Told You So…

“You’re probably gonna blog about this later, right?”

This may be coming a few days late, but better late than never. I’m going to keep this short as we have been down this road many times. You know I love you; as a friend, as a lover and as my homie. I don’t know what I would do without you!

They say you should let someone go if you truly love them and if they come back to you, they’re yours. If they don’t then they never were or it just wasn’t meant to be. I can’t promise I ever really let you go but I do know without a doubt that I love you from the depths of heart.

You could read this and never talk to me again. Or you could choose to still not feel the same way and that’s okay. Maybe you’ll never even read this.. Who knows. I just needed to get it off my chest.

You make me laugh and smile and touch my heart in a way that no one else has. I’m not expecting anything to change between us if that’s not what you want, just please don’t expect me to change the way I feel about you. I love you, always. I choose you.. I’ll always choose you.

“Here’s the truest thing I’ve ever known, the heart is just a muscle with a rhythm all its own. It doesn’t stop when you decide not to move on. The heart knows nothing of your love or of your loss. So life just keeps on ticking by, Compelled by instinct to survive. And love’s the only thing worth being alive for..”